when they said it would get better, they lied.
life doesn’t get better after anything. you just learn how to deal with it the next time it happens. sure it makes it more standable, but nothing really… gets… better.
Lowkey wanted this to end the way it started. I sat here with anticipation and got the reality of it I guess.. nothing ever stops.. but then again, why am I not surprised?
Seeing someone make the same mistakes as you.
I seriously hate dreaming about you. Because every time I wake up, I hate the situation even more. My mind becomes filled with regret. My heart falls slightly out of place. And I can’t do anything but sit there hating everything I’ve done to push you away as far as I have. I don’t just miss you. I…
It’s really hard to not call you babe or baby whenever I want to. It’s hard to not compliment you and call you beautiful the way i used to. It’s hard to not fall asleep and wake up to your face and voice anymore. It’s hard to see you and not be able to call you my girl. It’s hard to not show you that I love you. It’s hard..really hard.
I wanted to forget you and all the memories that we shared - so I lied to myself and to the world that I’m totally over you. I’ve done few dumb things that I regret more than anything and I’m so damn sorry for being a bitch. I miss “us” and I miss everything we had. I hope one day you will be able to forgive me…
Seriously I hate our arguments. I feel like things haven’t been the same between us and I don’t know how to fix things. I wish we could go back to the way things used to be. Take me back when I first fell for you?